graduation is giving me the fear. i love being an anthropology major because it forces me to see every aspect of life in a unique and whole way. i loved being an art major before that, because it made me feel that everything around me was personal. photographs became diaries and i became intimately bound to nature and sight. the scariest thing to me is that after graduation all my life will be is selling makeup. and theres nothing wrong with that. i didnt choose school for a secure job necessarily, i chose it for selfish reason of trying to out smart myself, trying to stretch my mind and faith as wide as they would expand, to be a more pure version of my self. i’m scared that if i end up just selling makeup, that ill stunt my personal growth. and i just hope i never come to realize that growing up means not growing at all. i just hope i can keep going on my own will even after everything slows down.
seriously having a major identity crisis. if you know me, hold me in your thoughts. please and thank you.